When I think of my journey postpartum, I think of it in two parts. One I was prepared for, and one I was not prepared for. My children are 9.5 months apart (Irish Twins). After my first pregnancy 4 years ago, I was so sure I was going to kick this pregnancy belly goodbye for a few years. So I started working out little by little. It was to my surprise 3 months later going into the doctor for stitches that my husband and I, along with our then 3 months old would be expecting AGAIN.
I quickly got depressed. Not that I wasn’t excited about having another child, but I hadn’t yet formed a routine or a solid bond with my first. In a way, I felt like a bad mom for springing this on my little girl. I felt like I was taking that “mommy and me” time away. Fast forward to when my son was born, our daughter was almost 10 months; walking and talking up a storm. Balancing the two under one was a challenge in itself. I was exhausted most days, I had help from both mothers (mine and my in-law) But still, I felt alone and it was as if I was rushing time with both kids. I was a complete mess! Then the body changes started to really take a toll on me. I had gained 40 extra pounds with my first, lost 10, gained almost 60 with the second. I literally couldn’t stand how I looked. Not to mention, no one in my family wanted to be around me; at all. I had a hard time for the first 2 months connecting with my son. And it made me feel so terrible.
I felt like I was unfit in every area. Being a wife, being a mom to these 2 beautiful babies, and a friend. So in order to deal with this postpartum depression feeling (because that’s honestly how it was), I started with checking my heart, and myself the only way I really knew how; praying to God for strength. I grew up in a Christian home. And prayer was always the key to any hardship. That and trusting in the Lords promises. With each prayer and every cry, the Lord began to ease my pain and struggle.
Next, I started to work out almost every day. Starting with an at home program that was 20 minutes long. Eating healthier became interesting and I learned quickly what I liked and didn’t like. For 2.5 years I have successfully managed to not only lose over 60 pounds, but I have also gained a sufficient amount of muscle and definition to my body. I love who I see when I look in the mirror!
My kids are closer than ever and I don’t think our lives could be any better. All because of the prayer I prayed that day for strength. My faith in Jesus is very important to me and the reason I am where I am today. I’ve managed to build a business centered around being faithful and trusting in God in the process of living a healthy AND fit life. Motherhood has shown me how to be patient, and strong in every stage of my kid’s lives. Surprise entrances, depression, and even hard times. I am the women, wife, and mother I am because God is faithful.