1. Tell me about your mindfulness journey. When did you start focusing on mindset? Why?
I started working on my mindset while trying to conceive. I had made the decision to discontinue my antidepressant and had finished therapy. I struggled with anxiety and depression throughout my doctorate program but mostly used medication to manage it and did not intentionally work on the root cause.
While TTC, I was determined to manage my mindset on my own as a wellness challenge. I wanted to create the most fertile, healthy, natural home for my baby and working diligently on my mindset was part of my conception plan. Months of two-week waits and negative tests had me practicing grace. It was also my internship year where I spent extended periods of time away from my husband. I realized I relied on him heavily to support my emotions. The combination of these factors inspired a mission to manage my own emotions.
2. How did you begin implementing these tools into your life?
Initially, I dove back into my Christian upbringing, going to church and reading the Bible. I read Eat Pray Love. Started following Gabby Bernstein meditations. Picked up crystals from a metaphysical store. I continued to open my mind to the unfamiliar. I listened to many podcasts on consciousness and happiness to feed my mind.
Fast forward through graduation and moving to Colorado. Hypnobabies was a major part of my pregnancy and birth. I still use their mediation tools today. After birth, I experienced an ego death. About that same time, I discovered Rob Bell, Law of Attraction, and Abraham Hicks. I met a circle of women who gathered in monthly ceremony and conscious living became more and more intriguing.
3. What are your daily mindfulness rituals now?
- Journaling, morning is preferable
- Walks with my son and time spent resetting in nature
- Meditation for at least 10 minutes
- Yoga via YT (sometimes with my toddler, sometimes not)
- Visualization upon going to bed and waking up
4. How has your mindfulness practice changed after becoming a mother?
My birth center, Mountain Midwifery, provided adequate education around the importance of the bond between mother and child. With much encouragement around producing oxytocin and maintaining a healing environment postpartum, my self-care traditions were born! Sitz baths transitioned into my current bath ritual and chocolate is readily accessible as it was after the birth.
It has been very important for me to maintain my sense of autonomy and self despite being so deeply connected to another being. It’s as if motherhood turned up the necessity of self-care tenfold and I honor that call. I take mindfulness quite seriously because I recognize how I operate when I blow it off. I’m much more inclined to care for myself ahead of time rather than have to do damage control. My alignment throughout the day is non-negotiable.
5. How has mindfulness affected your parenting?
As I am aware of myself and the de-conditioning I’ve been doing, I am conscious of how I guide my son. I recognize the nourishment that’s supplemented my mind, body, and spirit so I aim to teach my son from that wisdom. Mindfulness definitely influences our schedule. It’s one of my biggest challenges to remain mindful during a toddler tantrum but it’s great practice. Rex, my son, is my greatest teacher in presence, patience, and joy! I’m very aware of my influence on his being and try to respect his desires and curiosities as an individual.
6. What have you learned about yourself throughout this journey?
By the journey of mindfulness and the journey of motherhood, I have learned I am resilient. I have the ability to create beautiful experiences if I wholeheartedly trust in the process. I have learned to honor myself and my life by consciously choosing every day.
7. What advice would you give to any mother who thinks she’s too busy to put any energy towards mindfulness?
Busy is not sustainable. If you’re chronically busy, that’s all the more reason to engage in mindfulness. Prioritizing a fraction of your day for your wellbeing returns a payoff beyond your investment of time. To give our best to our children, we must give the best to ourselves first. Also, call me, I’d be happy to provide resources or work with you to manage the busy.